The Enemy of Good

I never learned to accept “okay” quality.

Everything always had to be excellent, or else it was trash, start over and do it again, do it again forever until it’s right. It’s right or it’s not. There’s no such thing as partial credit, designing a bridge 99% right kills 100’s of people. Even if it didn’t, why would you settle for less than perfect? Do you want to lose points? If you can be perfect, you should be.

It’s not like you have anything better to do anyways.

You can’t do the next lesson until next week, and if you do anything from any other class, or worse, something not educational, you’re a smart enough kid to guess what’ll happen.

Marketing, ideas, and sorting

I wonder how much can actually be paraded due to a combination of lack of expertise and trust in authority on the side of the audience and social shaming tactics on the side of the deliverer.

Seeing through solar roadways needs some understanding of engineering. Seeing through hyper-realistic portraits needs some understanding of drawing. Seeing through No Man’s Sky needed some understanding of programming or video game design.

Mass Effect Andromeda claims to not be able to make white characters because of the “textures” they used. The new Scorpio console says it’ll be better than the best PCs at the cost of one top-of-the-line PC component. Trump’s Syria attack is defended on the grounds that the president has more “intel”.

No one can be an expert on everything, but neither can one not trust in anything nor not care about others’ opinions. “Fuck haters” and “Question everything” are worse-than-nothing statements because the questions should be directed towards critical points.

I think analyzing people’s backgrounds, connections, and objectives bypasses these problems to a reasonable extent. These should be the baseline, with the “facts and evidence” on the “actual” issues as secondary, because the “actual facts” are more easily fabricated by quite a few orders of magnitude. There are people that lie about their work history, but at some point they leave a trail, and people even in the age of their internet for one reason or another generally don’t change names. Generally speaking peoples’ history of actions are hidden or missing rather than fabricated – the opposite of “actual facts”.

The people most worth looking into demonstrate this principle. Executives are the most powerful and their backgrounds generally aren’t in any “field” – Sooner will an executive of groceries become an executive of pharmaceuticals than a pharmacist, even though their degree might’ve been in partying sociology, or maybe never had a degree at all. Arguing a pharmaceutical executive’s, whether a CEO’s or a politician’s, decisions primarily on basis of biology or chemistry or medicine – or worse, morals – is the discussion level of peons.

“Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people.”

Any person can expound about ideas. Even when talking about celebrity gossip and keeping up with the Joneses they’re basically talking about ideas. We even have a grammatically correct form of the word for personification: idols.

Expounding on people though is different. Beyond saying she likes cake or he goes weightlifting, can just any person accurately and effortlessly predict what some other person is going to do or say? They can’t. They can’t even fathom where to begin. Of course not, they can’t even understand the people they’ve spent years with!

“I thought you were going to do X.”
“Why in the hell would I do X? That never even occurred to me.”
“I dunno. Maybe you might’ve.”

But he sure does know what’s moral and what’s not or what’s the right thing to do in a certain situation of a field he only heard about two days ago! Just look at all these links and quotes from reputable sources he found on Google.

If only Google could predict what his friends were going to do too, then he could be just as confident and correct with people as he was with ideas. Such a lookup exists, it’s just not available at, and is only available to advertisers, politicians running for head of state, and other big dollarydoo clients.

But it’s okay, because only small minds discuss people anyways.

“Checking” Facebook

Not using facebook is pretty great. It’s like getting a good night’s sleep; everything’s magically grown more detail.

Probably because as many friends as I can get and as many news “stories” there are, it’s all basically about the same voices saying about the same thoughts and about the same things. It’s not like it’s a calendar of deadlines; the vast majority of items are unactionable, so they all blend into each other like so many fetch quests.

Or perhaps more simply, fb “stories” average ten to a hundred words, and outside I find and read “stories” from two thousand words to tens of hours.

They too are generally unactionable, but unlike stuff I see on fb, which pretends the actions are liking, sharing, and commenting, there’s no pretense, so I’m left with thinking about what to do with what I’ve learned instead. Write a couple thousand words to review the morals and materials? Read up other things the author has done?

Or maybe close the tab/game/video and get back to work?

Hit Detection

I stopped drawing to masturbate. I opened up Honey Select cause that’s what I wanted.

I proceeded to spend the next half a day in HS… not masturbating.

The “half day” part isn’t particularly important, even if I had paid closer attention to the time I probably still would’ve spent 30~60 minutes in HS before realizing I wasn’t doing what I stopped drawing for. Or to put it another way, I could’ve continued drawing for 30~60 more minutes, stopped, go instead to my porn folder, masturbated, then have the rest of the day to do whatever and it would’ve been more productive. I did learn some things in HS, but it’s not how I intended to spend my day[1].

What’s important is that I intended to do one thing and did something else instead. Today it was HS and masturbation. Past couple of months it’s been WOT and having fun. Past two decades it’s been school and happiness in life. In several memorable instances, it’s been humiliating acts and social acceptance.

If the effects of something couldn’t have been predicted it’s one thing, but I think this applies quite frequently to stuff that could have been known too.

I wanted to see what a certain gym was like once, and they did this hour-long spiel-plus-tour and revealed the rates and the existence of both a safety and an advance deposit almost after-the-fact, buried in a sea of text. And I signed it! Even if I couldn’t predict what sales tactics they’d use, I’d been to a different gym before which, within 10 seconds of me walking in the door and asking the front desk what the rates were, was shown a laminated single sheet with big numbers how much it’d cost if paid per 1mo, 3mo, 6mo, 1yr. No fancy ~lifestyle~ names about what this plan is called or that plan’s benefits are; this is the table of costs for a membership, if you want yoga classes it’s a separate charge. Unfortunately that gym is also basically bankrupt, even though it’s cheaper and in a better location. I don’t doubt the addition of predatory sales tactics and red-orange-green marketing strategies would up their numbers; in any case this sample size of 2 tells me that the majority of people go to a gym for reasons other than actually getting fit[2].

How can these occurrences be countered?

The more I revisit this the more things seem to come down to awareness and reactivity.

“Reactivity” is a word I made up which happens to exist; what I mean is to have decided on things beforehand and not budging from it after the decision. There is never a time where there is something to be gained from pondering new material in the moment – there’s no shame in losing, but if it happens, you are “at a loss”, and you should strive to avoid it in the future. An expectation should be set concretely, and results checked within a matter of minutes or seconds. If things have deviated from expectations, react strongly and reject any “alternatives”. Your expectation should have included them if they were reasonable, and if you were wrong, then better you learn later than be taken advantage of in the moment.

I walked into that gym thinking “it’d be nice” if they had a simple sheet like the other gym. I did ask what the prices were, but they asked me to sit down until they could have some [associate?] “walk me through” “the process”. Different companies have different naming conventions and slightly different ways of doing things… which is fine, so long as that “different” is still within the range of “stuff I’m okay with”, which should’ve stopped when the first thing the [associate?] gave me wasn’t a price table. At that point I should’ve interrupted him, stood up, literally why should I give a fuck about what they think of me it’s not like they’ll call my mother, they fail for one reason or another to present me the thing I want so the relationship is over. But no, because “I didn’t want to be a dick”[3], so I let him go on his spiel… wasting an hour of my life.

Opened HS thinking I’d get my dick wet then get back to work; didn’t have a day left when I was done. In this instance no one was there to exploit the weak point, so it probably could’ve gone a whole lot worse[4], but it still could’ve gone a whole lot better.

“Awareness”, other than the usual meaning, can primarily be augmented with some amount of other priorities. If you only have one thing to do and you’re actively trying to do something else that’s “temporary”, something not a major task and therefore lacks an “importance” value to it, “temporary” can become dangerously long. It’s clearer how important one thing is when there’s a handful (but not an overwhelming amount) of other things to serve as contrast. More rigidly, this means a schedule. Nothing is truly “scheduled” if there’s only one thing to do, but if multiple things have to be done within a certain timeframe then any “break” from one of them affects all of them.

In terms of training these two things videogames are probably terrible. Videogames will always automatically and without fail tell you whether something has or hasn’t happened. If you fire a bullet at an enemy you know if you did damage within a fraction of a second; if you fire a resume at an application you won’t know when you’ll know if it’s ever seen by human eyeballs again. Physics has instant hit detection but with people and ideas it exists sporadically. People even actively attempt to make it disappear by training themselves with ritual magic they call “politeness” and “professionalism”. Their actions generally reveal their intentions, but it can be difficult to see them if their words are marching the other way. In the end you have to decide where the cutoffs are, then follow your own instructions “blindly” until the event has passed. “Can’t bluff someone who isn’t paying attention”.

Upon browsing my old posts, it looks like I’ve written about this before on multiple occasions. At least the “decide for yourself beforehand” part. As for the other part, I have an ancient draft with a bunch of different ideas titled “What’s In A Name?”. Recently and unrelatedly, I’ve also collected in a txt a bunch of ideas under “what’s in a word”.


The mechanics of verbal deception is evidently my enduring topic.


[4] This “weak point” is probably how a lot of Free To Play games make their money.

[3] Read a bunch of ‘horror stories’ about commissioning amateur artists recently; this phrase was surprisingly common on a lot of them. One of them had an expected turnaround of about three months and let the thing go on for five years. This wasn’t some ten-dollar throwaway sketch either, it was a deposit of two grand USD.

I ended up getting my shit refunded from the gym the next morning. The internet has thankfully trained me to be pretty nitpicky stringent, but there are some really simple tricks I’ve noticed which completely undo my tendencies. Things which can be trained against but probably will always retain some power. Having to interact with people face-to-face is one. Lots of paperwork is another…

[2] I don’t have the numbers, but assuming what’s said about gyms right after New Year’s is true, I think it’s safe to say most people don’t actually get fitter after starting to go to the gym. Which is what you’d expect from people who aren’t going to the gym to get fit.

[1] For the curious, HS is a game which allows you to pose characters into sex positions.

World of Tanks, rigging, and its defenders

In early February I returned to play World of Tanks. I had quit sometime late 2014 or early 2015 after playing hours on end for 6 months because I needed something to show for in my life. I had read at a later point a convincing argument that the game was rigged, which stopped me from coming back at various times, but this time I thought, if I don’t care about winning or stats, then it shouldn’t matter. I knew the itch I needed to scratch was being able to play around with pretty things in a pretty environment – but out of all the games available to me, it’d “be nice” to be “doing something” at the same time.

Pretty quickly I recognized that I wasn’t able to / it was impossible to simply disregard winning and losing and that the game really was rigged. My brow was permanently furrowed for about a week after I started playing at all hours of the day. I looked it up again and came across a different analysis as well as an actual patent for rigging, and thought I might as well collect some of my own data and make my own while I’m still playing the game. It was obviously frustrating, obviously rigged, but maybe it’d be a bit of a fun project to collect data and then play around in Excel a bit – something, anything to keep me in game so it could scratch that itch. I was collecting data, arguments, and some responses too – my plan was to write my own “Don’t Play World of Tanks!” with my own approach.

Then I played NieR:Automata[1] and I realized there was no point in bothering.

I won’t say there was never a dull moment, but N:A in light of everything else was a wild ride from beginning to end. A masterfully crafted story and experience. So much that on /v/ the contrarians marketers couldn’t help but reveal themselves by saying verifiably false things, revealing their position and intent all along. Things that anyone who actually played the game, regardless of whether they liked it or not, would know where wrong. For people who hadn’t played the game though it wouldn’t be so clear. Who’s telling the truth? Which opinions are the reliable ones? At a glance rather than an overwhelmingly positive response it’d instead look like the response to the game was “controversial”, when it’s nothing but. Both the experience of playing and of reading the feedback to N:A convinced me that it was a waste of my time to gather data and construct an analysis[2].

First of all my approach was completely wrong. All the detailed complicated list of numbers is miniscule stuff, the best arguments should always play the biggest moves first. The first question is whether or not a game is fun / worth playing. In this sense it’s obviously not unless you have a tank fetish. If you’re in WOT just for something to play in, it’s a game where you have to play for tens to hundreds of hours being nothing more than a punching bag, and then maybe you get to punch back. Maybe[3]. These things are neither up for debate nor contested at all; people actually argue that many higher tier tanks are balanced because there’s a bunch of shit tanks that come before them. But why would anyone do that when they can play N:A or any number of other games where it’s all fun all the time? Do you have tens or hundreds of hours that are not only at your disposal, but hours with which you have nothing better to do with your life? I’d get more out of scrolling down Facebook. This is even more clear for premium tanks, which cost 50+ USD. For about the same amount I’ve gotten mediocre full titles which I had 30~50 hours of fun. 30 hours in WOT is about 250 games, and there isn’t anyone whose honeymoon with a premium has lasted that long. Not unless they have a tank fetish. For everyone else the game is suffering; if you ask /wotg/ whether or not you should play this game, you will get a resounding “no”, if you ask why they still play it, they’ll say something to the effect of “stockholm syndrome”.

I don’t know what textbook stocholm syndrome looks like, but I imagine it’s pretty close to what WOT players exhibit. Most supporting evidence for the argument that WOT is rigged is not only not contested, it’s fully agreed upon, and is “funny”. German tanks with their small shells and long barrels have high accuracy, but isn’t it funny that big Soviet shells with short barrels can smack people from across the map? No, that doesn’t signify that there are hidden stats, it’s just an effect of RNG! An RNG that consistently swings one way and never contradicts the experiences of thousands of people who are all saying it works one and only one direction. Nevermind that historically people actually complained and believed in hidden stats, that WOT’s devs denied they existed, and then eventually somebody found the numbers for them and then they admitted its existence. Stats which are to this day not available in official materials and can only be found in third party sites.

The T110E5 is listed as having 203.2mm frontal turret armor. A third party 3D model inspector shows that 203.2 is true for about half the turret – and that’s if you only count how thick the armor is, rather than how effective it is, which is what really matters. The CDC is listed as having 35.29 horsepower per ton. You would think it’d run twice as fast as the FCM, which has ~18hp/t, but it doesn’t because of hidden stats dealing with how a tank’s tracks interact with different ground types. It basically goes as fast and accelerates about equally with a tank whose official stats say it should be twice as slow. There is no 3D model inspector in-game. There are no terrain resistance stats available in-game.

Since these third-party sites are known to most people the people who play and are vocal though, it’s okay. It’s okay that stats were hidden before because they are known now, it’s not like it means there’s more stats that are also still hidden, you can’t show they exist, so how can you say they do? Sure that tank is OP, but you could just get it and be OP yourself, I don’t see the problem here???

This is not an employee of the company that makes this game.

It couldn’t possibly have any sensical meaning to it, it’s a contradiction!
Who cares if it’s a contradiction, it’s funny! There’s no deeper meaning to it, NERD.

“2” is the standard hotkey assigned to premium ammunition, which almost always has strictly better listed performance.

My favorite WOT player is known for being critical, calling out things the things he sees wrong, and being both generally correct in what he calls out and not missing in what he doesn’t. Doesn’t fit any traditional definition of “shill”. But in the end he streams the game for a living, and thus, can’t say anything actually bad about it. He can ramble and rant all he wants about how this decision is bad or that decision is bad, but he can’t say – or rather, frame – something in such a way that will make people want to stop playing. The closest he gets is saying that a new premium tank shouldn’t be bought because it and the past several premiums have been powercreep, which means that the next yet-to-be-released premium tank is probably also going to be powercreep, and thus not worth your money. He will never conclude “you should stop playing this game”. And neither will anyone else who plays this. Or, in obverse: so long as you don’t explicitly conclude that the game is rigged and people should stop playing it, you can continue to provide evidence that it is rigged.

The moment you do conclude it’s rigged, they throw a riot.

All the usual stuff is said – git gud, mad cuz bad, looooserrrr, you’re just paranoid – which isn’t so big a deal and also makes sense why it’s so common among certain types of people if you remember reasoning is basically always ad hoc. Yes my reasoning is ad-hoc too, I believed the game was rigged first before I went looking for the evidence, no I don’t see a problem with that[4] because I am right and they are wrong. Whether I’m bad or good has nothing to do with whether the game is or isn’t rigged. Certainly it would be better in every sense if I was the best player ever or a billionaire or whatever, but I can’t really fix that. It also doesn’t matter if it’s true that it’s possible for me to improve my performance. I have improved in the past so I know it’s possible, but that doesn’t change that the game is rigged – that is to say, it runs by rules other than the ones which are explicitly stated. It doesn’t matter that it also runs by rules that are explicitly stated, it matters that it doesn’t only run by that set.

It is possible to show, but not demonstrate, that the game is rigged without any detailed stats.

The most dreaded time for a WOT player are 3x/5x bonus exp weekends. At these times, the “tomatoes”, referring to the red color of these players’ ratings on a third party site, come crawling out of the woodwork, the “weekend warriors”, the “casuals”. Suddenly all the games are stupid and hard to win, damn these tomatoes giving me a loss streak. During every other moment though it’s approximately the same sentiment, just towards “potatoes” instead, about how the playerbase in this game is so stupid they don’t know that they shouldn’t do this or should do that, even at tier 10 (remember, tens to hundreds of hours!), haha look at all this free damage I’m farming oh my god my teammates are so stupid. You would think with all this haughtiness that they win basically every game they play, except those really bad ones you hear about?


The top 1% players win 56%~59% of their games. This is from the most reputable third-party source, so reputable it’s first party in all but name. It’s a little more difficult to say where the 99th percentile is but let’s just say it’s 46%.

This means, in other words, absolute gods at this game perform better than absolute imbeciles at a staggering rate of 1 out of 10 games.

If you ran 100m’s against cripples you’d expect to win every time, but people lose 4 out of 10 games against cripples in WOT and posture around like they’re world class. Sure, by definition they’re world class, but by that definition Bioshock Infinite is the best game ever because it got 10/10, and no one’s about to defend that[5]. Keep in mind the official claim for the matchmaking is that it only takes into account tier and type of tank – the player is not in consideration, i.e. it’s not like Chess where you play people of higher skill the better you get. In WOT you are always going to face the same people. If it is true that there’s a bunch of idiots running around, then every game should be an absolute slaughter with a few people doing basically all of the damage and taking all of the kills. Which is what you do actually see:

I saved the results of 60 battles and found that:

Why then is the distribution of player winrate a bell curve around 50%[6]? Every dog has its day, and they get that day every other day? I thought the only common factor throughout all a person’s games was their skill and their skill alone?

I once was a tomato at 47% winrate, and I honestly didn’t think much about the game at all. If a tank appeared I shot, if not I continued driving. Essentially a bot. Then I learned about the basic game mechanics of angling armor and detection/camouflage, and the mental skills of keeping watch on the minimap so I could go to where I was needed, playing tanks which would theoretically have higher game impact in ways which would give them higher impact, and now I’m at… 52%. What kind of game is it where someone who doesn’t get the game at all only wins 3% less than a coin flip? What does it mean when someone who does have a basic grasp of all those things only wins 2% more than a coin flip? Then we take actual bots into account, bots which don’t do anything but turn their turrets this and that way or various other non-contributing actions that only exist so the AFK detection doesn’t tag them, and they have winrates of… 38~45%. You can win 4 out of 10 games by doing nothing! Learning how the game works gets you 1 out of 10 more. Getting to world class 0.1% gets you another 1 out of 10 more.

How many 100m’s do you think you’d win against someone sitting still?

As for detailed stats, the two analyses I linked earlier from Lightquick and Greedy Goblin should be more than sufficient to convince anyone who hasn’t played WOT that it’s rigged. They were the first two links in this post; please read each of them fully if you have the time.

There are some speculations as to how the rigging works. We know it is rigged thanks to the existence of the patent, but which ones are used at any given time is not something we can show for sure because unlike real life where crime scenes and actions leave physical evidence, we can’t access server code. Other than manipulation of teammates – giving you lots of teammates with historically poor winrates and giving the other team people lots of historically high winrates has a conclusion which I hope I don’t need to spell out[7] – the other obvious routes are accuracy, module damage, penetration, and regular damage. People find it “funny” when their low-accuracy high-damage gun, when firing on the move (accuracy lowered) and turning their turret (accuracy lowered), is able to hit someone across the map. Officially the aiming circle is a normal distribution with some sigma value of where your shot is going to land: “usually near the center, but always inside the circle“. Even every bit of your circle is filled with an enemy tank, where you hit is of tantamount importance. If you hit their tracks but not their hull, you do no damage. If you hit their front or rear wheels, you do damage and they lose the ability to move. If you hit their ammorack, it can be a 1HKO.

How often does this happen? Enough that there’s a whole developer series on it.

Note that in more recent iterations, they no longer show the player’s point of view, and thus, we don’t know how big the aim circle is at time of firing.

Penetration is a value on shells to determine whether or not a shot will do damage, and both pen and damage are +/-25%. If you have 100 pen you could roll 75, 100 damage you could roll 125. This discrepancy grows as you go higher in tier because both pen and damage on higher tanks is larger. Suffice to say that this means a tank could be 125/75=66% more of a tank for one player than another… or for one game than another.

“But that doesn’t happen” then how do people go on loss streaks where they only win 25~30% of their games? Or worse? Remember, 40% is the “sit and do nothing” score, and you can’t kill your teammates every game either, and the game stops you from playing if you do that.

As for people who have played WOT and don’t believe that it’s rigged, there’s nothing to say to them. In the end, it comes down to a stranger’s word versus their experience. I’ve collected about 400 games’ worth of data, but that wouldn’t be enough for anyone. 1000 wouldn’t be enough, even 10,000 would likely not cut it, because most people who are vocal who still play this game have played it for 20,000+ battles, and if they don’t believe that there’s some funny shit going on after 2000+ hours, no one’s word short of maybe their mother’s can contradict what they’ve seen firsthand.

bsyajcaNot even their own.


“Seal clubbing” is a phrase about experienced players who play low tiers to play against new players, and therefore raising their winrates. It is generally true that low tiers have newer players, newer players generally don’t know the game’s mechanics, and that it’s easier to get a higher winrate than in other tiers. Now if all this is true… how is it possible for low tiers to also be “extremely variable”? If it’s “extremely variable”, how does one “seal club” there? I have to presume it’s called “seal clubbing” and not “coin flipping” for a reason.

Even supposing it’s “extremely variable”, who cares? Isn’t the argument that the only common factor throughout all a person’s games was their skill and their skill alone?  IF it’s balanced and IF it’s totally random who gets put on whose team and IF this guy REALLY IS “seal clubbing” then he knows what he is doing and he’s up against people who don’t. How does he go from winning at a rate equal to the top 0.1% over hundreds of games to a rate equal to the bottom 1%? Note here that there’s no argument that Lightquick deliberately sabotaged himself. They don’t bring that up, and won’t ever bring that up, even though to anyone who hasn’t played WOT it’s the most obvious solution.

Why? Because they’ve had it happen to them too. It’s a dirty little secret. The reason why 3x/5x weekends are such a big deal is because they know it isn’t fair. If they actually believed what they said, that bonus weekends bring all the “shitter casuals” out, then it should be something to enjoy. It’s time to sealclub and statpad on tanks that they actually like, without the social stigma that it’s sealclubbing or statpadding! But instead they dread it because it doesn’t pad their stats. It does the opposite. They lose on bonus weekends. They can’t seem to stop losing. Shots don’t hit, if they hit they don’t pen, and oh boy they just got instagibbed by a low-accuracy tank while driving at full speed. They simultaneously believe that this will be the case, that it’s a near certainty, but the moment you confirm it explicitly and say “yeah it’s rigged”, they’ll just say it was bad RNG. They will never believe they were meant to lose.

There’s more doublespeak going on here; there’s more every time you look at any game which is obviously garbage but has vocal defenders anyways. I could explain how they’re wrong but this post is getting a little long so I won’t this time. Fortunately for me, Greedy Goblin’s analyses were written several years ago, and these commenters in particular have continued to play in the four years since they’ve made their point that “if the system was rigged like you say, i should be dropping to a 50% winrate!”. At the time of posting, Tiger313 had 22840 battles and Freshmeatiest had about 4500. They’ve played about 16,000 and 14,000 battles respectively since then, or approximately 1750 hours each. What do their winrates look like now?

Looks like they’ve been busy losing their faculties.


Bonus round! This game has been out since 2010~2011, the below videos are from ~2015.

Let’s not consider rigging or all the other complicated stuff.

Simplified: Would you play this game?


[7] You win!

[6] It’s 48% due to ties, not important; important is that it’s bell curved and not right-skewed, which is what the kill and damage data would suggest, as well as the general understanding that in PvP games it’s generally a few players that dominate the rest.

[5] Videogame journalists ranted and raved about it back then, but these days they wouldn’t. Isn’t that funny? Isn’t it funny how they’re giving Mass Effect Andromeda 7/10 now and defending how it’s a fair score? Everyone knew that 8/10 meant “garbage” and 10/10 was “meh” but now “7/10” is game of the year, and isn’t it great that we’re returning to a balance where 5/10 is the true average? Oh but Zelda still gets 10/10 no matter what. Isn’t that funny. Wait, “funny”? Hmm….

[4] Because at some point I believed it wasn’t rigged. Due to events and experience which don’t count as evidence under scientific definitions, I therefore magically and irrationally transformed from “unbiased” into “biased”.

[3] 1) You don’t know if it’s actually good or not. There’s a lot of stats about tanks on this game, but you don’t actually know what “250 penetration at tier 10 with x.xx reload, x.xx damage, x.xx accuracy” means until you play it. German tanks have better accuracy stats almost across the board; you won’t find anyone who agrees they mean anything significant. 2) It could be completely different by the time you play it, thanks to “balance patches” and “updates”. 3) Rigging.

[2] Yes I had my conclusion in mind beforehand. No I didn’t approach it with an unbiased mind, no this isn’t “scientific”, no I don’t care. Do you really think any “science” is done without significant confidence in results beforehand? Do you really believe they don’t skew results for their benefit i.e. prestige, employment, and grant (literally: Free) money? Even priests are associated with sin; somehow scientists aren’t?

[1] I’ll get to writing it. I had planned this one for a while though so I needed to get it out of the way first.

Most rigging is invisible

I don’t think the average person actually has any mental tells for when something is rigged. They just assume everything’s gaussian or uniform distribution until… someone they trust tells them otherwise.

Or in other words – everything they are told is gaussian or uniform, they will defend as such, until the moment they are told otherwise.

Some of them may know of statistics and the “correct” way to determine what a distribution is, but even if they use it, which they generally won’t, I don’t think they will believe it.

Test: Suppose you give the average person a loaded die and they lack access to complicated equipment to measure directly, the only way they can test it is by rolling it. Suppose one face is loaded to 1/4 instead of the true 1/6, meaning that it’s almost a 10% chance more likely roll than it should be – significant if you think about it, but not completely noticeable if you don’t. How many times does the average person need to roll it before they believe that it is loaded?

Test: Additionally supposing you were trustworthy or otherwise held authority with them, what is the chance that the number of required rolls is infinite?

98% of reasoning is ad hoc

The idea of science or truth-finding, as it’s thrown around, is to “let the evidence speak for itself”. The ideal is that no opinions are formed beforehand, and only after gathering, sorting, and analyzing the indisputable facts, is a conclusion made.

Now, for some reason, people assume that they’re able to do this correctly off the bat. They also assume, I think due to some Western dogma that I can’t name because I don’t know my history, that everyone else is able to do the same, completely naturally and without effort, unless they have otherwise been artificially corrupted or sinned. Nevermind that they think of scientists highly and think of it as a well-paid profession, that they’ve learned of the history of vastly different and mutually exclusive ideas held as true by scientists throughout time, that there are things that scientists disagree with each other upon, little old them can do it with any subject matter because duh, it’s not like they have to do any work. Didn’t you hear? “The evidence speaks for itself!” As for any potential self-conflicts, they write it off as “new evidence” or “science is a self-correcting process” or any number of other things. They treat it as the worldview version of democracy: ‘the worst epistemology, except for everything else’; except who cares what else there might be in “everything else”, this is what I was taught in school and it’s all I need, hasn’t failed me yet. Except when it does, and when it does, it’s self-correcting.

As if “self correcting” is such a big deal for an epistemology. They criticize Christian priests for saying that “oh, actually, God doesn’t say anything bad about gays!” or dinosaurs or heliocentricity or whatever, then blink and forget about it. Same with the Chinese Communist Party. They’re not very communist now are they? They’ll disagree with you though. I don’t know what they’d say exactly but it’d probably be along the lines of “we’ve made some improvements”. I don’t need to talk about the American media and the whole rise and fall of the term”Fake News” do I?

Every way of thinking has ways of self-correcting, and every way of thinking will self correct until the moment you no longer believe it.

If that feels a little stretched, that’s because it’s worded backwards. Forwards, it’s

You will continue to think in a certain way as long as you can correct its errors.

Oh, but there’s a difference between “reasoning” and “rationalizing”. Sure. There’s also a difference between “nepotism” and “connections”, and “fact” and “opinion”, and “Correcting” a mistake is different than “Covering it up” too. Gee isn’t that nice, great sixth grade vocabulary lesson. One of us totally didn’t have a grasp on the English language before the other of us came along. So what’s the followup? So what?

Well, the difference is applied, and we can tell whether a way of thinking is faulty and needs to be changed or works just fine and nothing needs to be done.

Results are in: we’re always right and the other guy is always wrong.

All our corrections are either ‘improvements’ from people we already agreed with, or admitted changes but denied significance e.g. “oh pfft yeah I knew that, I just forgot / I just didn’t care / who cares”, while every inch the other guy gives is significant no matter what.

Test: What proportion of disagreements are civil, substantive, do result in a participant changing his mind, and don’t result in one participant characterizing the other as a simple cartoon villain who is inexplicably and irrelevantly evil and corrupted?

Is it 1 in 2?

1 in 5?

I think it’s closer to 1 in 100, but I can compromise halfway and say 1 in 50.

Now, it absolutely could be, that there’s a bunch of absolutely stupid retarded or corrupted people running around spouting opinions and just using defense mechanisms and logical fallacies every time they come to something which is against what they believe in, and by some magical spell or stroke of luck, you aren’t one of them. I can’t disprove that. But it seems a little too long winded and self fellating. Easier and simpler to model it as “I do things right, and my enemies do things wrong”. Hanlon’s razor might be retarded, but Occam’s is pretty good.

Eventually people will give in and admit this is actually what they do, and this is the kind of person they want to associate with. Those who don’t value others they’ve had history with and don’t cover for people who they’ve worked with before, just because in some instance and some interpretation, they didn’t follow the rules or weren’t strictly correct on some opinion, those kinds of people don’t have friends. And friends are important. Hobbesian State of Nature is intuitively ludicrous because everyone needs to sleep, and that means you’re going to need people helping you keep watch while you sleep, which means regardless if they tell a lie here or fuck your wife there, unless you have better options for the same purpose, you’re gonna have to deal, and even if you have better options, you better be careful, because you are also someone else’s consideration for replacement. It makes sense why it is the way it is. It also makes sense why people still hold up all the stuff they claim they do but they admit they don’t – the words and beliefs too are defenses against outsiders.

Networking. Rule of law. Evidence speaks for itself. I Fucking Love Truth, amirite lol?

I can only say such things because I can also say openly that I favor my friends, that everything that comes out of my mouth is my opinion, and that I think I’m always right. It’s more vulgar and crude, my personality and approach. Whether or not I actually do those things is a different matter. Isn’t it funny that it seems more likely that I’d engage in nepotism? Because I told you I would? Alternatively, if you already know me, isn’t it funny that your opinion on my likelihood on whether or not I’d do those things didn’t change? I did tell you, didn’t I?

If I had to venture a guess it’s because I’ve been an outsider my whole life trying to get inside various groups using their explicitly stated rules, continually failing, continually getting shafted, continually being told I’m “us” while I’m still “them”, and continually finding out that the game is rigged. It’s never the explicit rules, it’s always some other, hidden, second set. Yes, I am mad because bad, I am frustrated because I’m a loser; what winner would ever need to reconsider and improve on his ways? As for why I’m an outsider, I’m not sure. I think it might be because I’m Chinese and my way of thinking or speaking is also inherently Chinese. But in any case why is the enemy. What matters is “now what”, and the answer to that is “revealing the rigging”.

But I still get my laughs sometimes. Yesterday was the “Vault 7” Wikileaks and there’s been a lot of buzz about the “Deep State” of the American government, where the “unelected bureaucracy” and “intelligence community” hold the true power in relation to foreign policy and a number of other things. There’s been some uproar about a former CIA chief saying it’s not a “deep state” but a “friendly permanent government” – ‘It’s the beginning of a dark age!’ ‘The end of the experiment of freedom!’ I mean, really, what’s the big deal? They’re doing the same thing you’re doing, just with more people and more money. They’re your countrymen. Same culture, same blood – what makes them so special that they would refrain from doing at work what everyone else is doing everywhere? You think they weren’t doing it in any way at some point in time?

I guess some people actually think everyone else is just stupid.

Actually, I shouldn’t say that. Occam’s razor might be pretty good, but Hanlon’s is retarded.